title: the Vows we Break
fandom: Hikaru no Go
characters/pairings: Shindou Masao/OMC(s), Shindou Mitsuko, Hikaru/Akira, Touya Akiko & Kouyo
rating: Mature
warnings: sex, cheating, stabbing
summary: Shindou Masao has a midlife crisis, which may or may not have something to do with his son.
notes: written for the hikago big bang. this is essentially original!fic, given that it primarily revolves around a character than never appears in the manga or the anime. for anyone willing to take a chance and read it anyway, i deeply appreciate it. i've written Shindou Masao as gay before, so that idea has somewhat been in my head for a while. this fic could be seen as a sequel to 1/2 tsp. red pepper flakes, though it would be the most absurd sequel ever, since that fic was 357 words, and this one is over 55,000.


He checked the door before trying the bell, knowing by the cars outside that both Akira-kun's parents and Mitsuko were already here, so likely the house was full and the door would be open. He then held it for Jun, who was laden down with packages. As Jun passed him, he sighed.

"You overdid it, you know."

"You've said that already," Masao sighed. "But I have not. You wouldn't believe how much stuff a baby needs!"

"I don't think babies need quite as many toys as you got," Jun sighed, struggling to slip off his shoes.

They stepped inside to the living area, and found the whole complement there. Masao dropped his packages right inside the door, and went to Hikaru, who was holding the baby. "Let me see her!"

"Ok, dad, here, wait be careful..." Hikaru started, but Masao took the baby from him like a pro.

"I do have some experience," Masao teased him. He lifted the little girl up, and she gurgled and fussed. He bounced her a bit, and she blinked and looked at him. "She's just gorgeous."

Someone snapped a picture of him. He turned and stuck his tongue out at Jun. "What?" Jun replied innocently. "First time grandpa gets to hold his granddaughter. That moment should be preserved." He was putting a bit more emphasis on grandpa than necessary, but Masao didn't mind.

Grandpa sounded pretty damned great to him.

"I told you," Mitsuko laughed. "Masao loves babies. He was just like that when you were a baby, Hikaru. Everyday, he'd come home from work, and make a beeline to wherever you were. He just couldn't wait to hold you and play with you."

He got the little girl to grip his finger, and his heart just swelled. "Who doesn't loves babies? They're so much easier to get along with than normal people."

"You might be confusing babies with dogs," Jun sighed.

Masao shook his head, and then he passed the baby off to his lover. Jun froze, and tried to stop him, but Masao pulled his arms into position and then Jun was holding a baby.

And it was Masao's turn to take a picture.

Masao took a moment to look around the room. He greeted Touya Kyouya and Akiko, and Hara-san, and smiled at Mitsuko. He helped Jun sit down, too amused at how afraid he was of her and how she was gurgling at him to take the baby back. "Have you picked a name yet?"

"Ayanna," Akira-kun replied happily. "That, we agreed on."

"Shindou Ayanna sounds very good," Hikaru coolly added.

"So does Touya Ayanna," Akira-kun icily replied.

"You two should legally formalize things," Masao sighed. "You don't need to change your names for your profession, but with a child between you, you should have your relationship more firmly protected. One of you should adopt the other, and all three of you should be on the same family register."

"I've been saying that!" Akiko-san poked her husband with her elbow. "It could complicate things if you don't."

"Er," Akira-kun and Hikaru looked at each other, both turning shades of pink and red. "Well, we've been talking about it, too, it's just..."

"It's just another thing we don't agree on," Hikaru sighed. "If we knew exactly who was doing what with that, it would have simplified the paperwork for Ayanna, too. For now, we have her listed as Touya Shindou Ayanna."

"That's just crazy," Masao sighed. He took pity on Jun and reached out to take Ayanna. "Your papas need to get their act together, don't they, beautiful? Yes, they do. Because you're now the most important person in the world, aren't you? Yes, you are, and as well you should be." He kissed her forehead and rocked her a bit, getting her to wriggled and make grabby hands. Probably for his eye patch, unfortunately.

Hikaru and Akira-kun exchanged looks. "Well, I guess it's just because we're both only children. Only sons, too. We're both really attached to our names. I mean, wouldn't it bother you if I was no longer a Shindou?"

"It's not up to me to make the decision for you," Masao calmly replied, "but even if you legally became Touya Hikaru, you'd still be my son. You can't get rid of me that easily, I'm afraid."

"It just all happened kind of quickly," Akira-kun smiled. His father grunted, and he looked a bit shamefaced in response. "Er, well, I just mean, we still have details to iron out."

"How did this all happen?" Mitsuko wondered. "I just got a message that you were coming back from China with a baby girl. I was a bit afraid you were going to be arrested at the airport."

"Mom!" Hikaru laughed. "We didn't steal her!"

"We were touring the country with a cultural group, playing exhibition matches with pros from China, Korea, and Taiwan," Akira-kun explained. "As part of the tour, in Guangxi province, we visited an orphanage. At the time, due to a lot of factors, they had a sudden influx of children and babies. They were in the process of gathering resources and reorganizing, you know, trying to send some children to different places that weren't as overflowing and also expediting some adoptions. Anyway, at that time, Ayanna was seriously sick, and they didn't have the money or resources to get her the medicine and care she needed. We took an interest in her, and they arranged to let us travel with her to a hospital in the closest large town so we could get her the care she needed. We dropped out of the tour to watch over her as she got better, and, well." He smiled at Hikaru goofily. "We just. Sort of fell in love with her."

"Since we already had the paperwork to travel with her, it kind of... made what would otherwise be a difficult adoption easy," Hikaru shrugged. "To make it simpler, in China, we just had one of us take responsibility. And that's how our family grew."

Masao stroked Ayanna's cheek lovingly, looking into her dark, glassy eyes. "Thank god you were in the orphanage when you needed to be, huh?" he wondered.

"That's how we feel about it," Akira-kun replied, giving his father a look.

Touya-san coughed, straightening up. "I never said that it was bad for you to help her. I was just... surprised... as anyone would be. You two are still rather young, after all."

"Really?" Masao frowned a bit, bouncing Ayanna. "But they're the same age, roughly, as Mitsuko and I when Hikaru was born."

"Oh, I didn't realize! You must have been in a bit of a hurry, then?" Akiko-san asked Mitsuko.

Mitsuko repressed her laughter. "Well, our situation was... not standard. But yes, when we got married, it was like a mission, really, wasn't it, dear?"

"Mission accomplished," Masao nodded, nodding at Hikaru. Jun was barely able to contain his laughter, so Masao carefully did not look at him. "At least at their age, they'll have plenty of energy to keep up with her. And if they can't arrange their schedules, her grandparents are still able to babysit. And we will be happy to do so, won't we, precious? Yes, we're going to have lots of fun spoiling you while your papas are off playing games."

"There you go again," Mitsuko sighed, getting up. She took Ayanna from him, despite Masao's protests. "Monopolizing the baby again! I'm looking forward to babysitting just as much as you are, I'll have you know!"

"Oh, fine," Masao sighed. Though, he was pretty sure Hara-san had plenty of grandkids to keep Mitsuko occupied. "We'll take turns."

"Hey, I'm glad we have plenty of backup. It took us nearly an hour to change her diaper on the plane. We only succeeded because the flight attendant took pity on us, or maybe the rest of the passengers, and helped out," Hikaru sighed.

"That's disgraceful, son," Masao dryly retorted.

"I bet you weren't so great at it at first, either," Hikaru pouted.

"Actually, he was," Mitsuko snickered. She let Ayanna suck on her finger. "I didn't have to change a diaper for nearly a month after you were born, between Masao and your grandmother. The first one I put on came out backwards. I was so ashamed. What kind of mother is less competent than the baby's father?"

"He turned out all right. If parents didn't make mistakes, kids would end up boring," Masao asserted.

"Oh, so all the times you complain about your father," Jun teased him, "that was just him making you interesting."

"Probably more so than he intended," Masao shook his head.

Ayanna screwed her face up tightly, clenching her wee fists together. After a minute, she relaxed, but began to whimper quietly. Mitsuko smirked. "Speaking of diaper changes... what a good natured child you are, Ayanna! When Hikaru was a baby..."

"Mom!" Hikaru stopped her. "We don't all need to hear this!"

"That's right. You have to go and change her. I'll stay out here and regale your company with tales of your infancy."

Hikaru groaned as his mother passed his daughter to him. "Aw. I thought you said I had a month before I had to really learn this."

"No, I said that fathers were better suited to this than mothers," she teased him.

"Don't worry, son," Masao got up and clapped his son on the back. "I've got you."

"You'll do it?" Hikaru asked hopefully, holding Ayanna out to Masao a bit.

"No," Masao laughed, steering Hikaru toward the baby's room. "The special joy of grandparenting is not having to change diapers. I will, however, coach you through the process."

Hikaru groaned as they walked back to Ayanna's room, and Masao squeezed his shoulder for encouragement, and to show his pride.

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